"Are you that afraid, Ollie? Don't you believe in me or you or anything? God, why are men such cowards, and why the hell do you have such thin skins and are afraid of a woman like a ladder to lean on. Listen, I've got things to do and you're coming with me. I can't leave you here, you'll fall down those damn stairs. But if I have to, I will. I want everything now, not tomorrow. That means you, Paris, and my job. Your novel will take time, but you'll do it. Now, do you do it here and feel sorry for yourself, or do we live in a cold-water walk-up flat in the Latin Quarter a long way off from here? This is my one and only offer, Ollie. I've never proposed before, I won't ever propose again, it's hard on my knees. Well?"
"Have we had this conversation before?" he said.
"A dozen times in the last year, but you never listened, you were hopeless."
"No, in love and helpless."
"You've got one minute to make up your mind. Sixty seconds." She was staring at her wristwatch.
"Get up off the floor," he said, embarrassed.
"If I do, it's out the door and gone," she said. "Forty-nine seconds to go, Ollie."
"Stan," he groaned.
"Thirty," she read her watch. "Twenty. I've got one knee off the floor. Ten. I'm beginning to get the other knee up. Five. One."
And she was standing on her feet.
"What brought this on?" he asked.
"Now," she said, "I am heading for the door. I don't know. Maybe I've thought about it more than I dared even notice. We are very special wondrous people, Ollie, and I don't think our like will ever come again in the world, at least not us, or I'm lying to myself and I probably am. But I must go and you are free to come along, but can't face it or don't know it. And now--" she reached out. "My hand is on the door and--"
"And?" he said, quietly.
"I'm crying," she said.
-From "The Laurel and Hardy Love Affair" by Ray Bradbury
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